detachment
Wednesday, May 8, 2024
Oh wow - hi again. I love that I’m starting to be active here in my lovely abode of thoughts. Well, today is a holiday in Berlin so my client sent a message that I can take a day off. Until tomorrow. Yay! Now that I’m awake, had my daily dose of caffeine, and am done with my skincare - let me share something that I’ve randomly thought about while having my brunch earlier.
The word that popped up in my head was detachment. So random, right?
In the last quarter of 2023, I can define that part of my life as detachment. I’ve been a people pleaser since birth. Afraid to hurt anyone, to disappoint, and to detach from them. It’s hard when you know that’s part of your personality. As you age, you’ll realize that these are some traits that we have control over. It’s just a matter of reflection, acceptance, and taking action.
So, what exactly is the “law of detachment”?
I used to think that detachment was the same as being apathetic or emotionally indifferent like having a blah attitude towards life where you’re just like yeah, whatever I don’t care what happens to me or my career or relationship. But now I’ve learned that actual detachment is releasing our desire for specific outcomes. It’s not needing for things to turn out in a certain way but at the same time, you’re still working towards and having a stake in that relationship or that career or that life outcome.
It’s a balancing act of caring enough to work hard towards that goal while still not caring too much and being overly invested to the point where it leads to self-sabotaging behavior. When we care a little too much, it puts a lot of pressure on us to achieve that outcome and often this causes us to overthink and make irrational decisions which then ironically stops us from achieving the result we want.
Detachment is being able to accept whatever happens good or bad for what it is and trusting that you’ll be okay no matter the outcome. You won’t be completely ruined and devastated if things don’t turn out the way you want to. Detachment sounds like “this relationship didn’t work out and I mean, we tried our best but maybe it was never meant to be and always meant to come to an end and I’ll be okay”. Or it could sound like “I did prepare for this job interview. But I guess I didn’t prepare enough. I’ll try again next time”.
Now you might be thinking, “Why is this important”?
I’ve come to realize that being able to detach is probably one of the greatest life skills that you can have which is why it’s something that I want to work on this year. Holding on to an idea just because you’ve come attached to it creates a lot of anxiety. It makes us obsessed over needing things to be a certain way and if it doesn’t turn out that way then it causes us a lot of pain. Attachment is all about trying to gain a sense of control over the situation but the thing is, control is an illusion because most things are out of our control.
The moment we release the need for control - to control our partners to behave exactly the way we want them to and for that project to perform the way we predicted and for our fitness journey to go exactly according to plan with zero hiccups then that’s when we can set ourselves free from this pain and that opens up more space for love in our relationships, creativity in our projects, and also real progress in our fitness journey.